Two Stuffs

They call it Heart and Mind

I've been brooding over dis subject for the last gud no. of days... Here it goes what I feel about it... (BTW I dnt claim to be a master on the subject)

Whenever a decision has to be made, whenever we are in doubt, in confusion and we seek for from the self, there are two replies dat we get from two different sources...

• A reply from mind
• A reply from heart

Not necessarily dat they are different... ( had they been always been the same)

But the situation gets more precarious, when the answers are doffernt,conflicting. Dats the moment when one does not know whom to lend his ears which had been serching for sum very intelligent answers

Follow ur mind or ur heart

A person who follows his mind generally reaches a level where he is successful, has the things he requires ( rather what he feels he requires)... ( OK the mind needs to be of better breed though ;) )

On the other hand, a person who follows his heart has felt happiness in his life. His smileis more deep and meaningful and clear and soothing than I guess nethin in the world. But all this comes at a good hefty price... It is this group of people who cry the most, who feel the burnt the heat in their heart when nethin bad happens to them... In his case though the tears first comes from the heart b4 wetting his eyelashes... but he derives all his pleasures from very small things on this earth ... which may be trivial to the whole world but him...

Mind for that matter has always been manipulative....

but can real joy be manipulated.... can the self be manipulated... thr is a limit to the things dat we can manipulate...as I've always u cannot cheat the self ur ego cannot be decieved...

But at the same time whatever mind things or guides u to comes at a relative ease... it follows the proven path... a decision which is acceptable by the society, by the audience (a larger one but wtf if they dnt matter u they matter for the mind) Yes mind listens to them b4 listening to u... a life which I've belived to be a borrowed one... a second-hand life... a second hand happiness....

Heart doesn't give a damn fuck to ne of these stuffs... For the heart wot matters is u and u and u... no other damn thing in the world...

But ne way both hav their share of patrons ...

But the worst sufferer are the those who hav both ... i.e they refer to both of them b4 arriving at a conclusion...

I guess this is the last blog for this year... happy new year

A dream again...

Another dream but quiet interesting and a bit scary as it broke my sleep...
Here it goes I,one of my friend along wid sum other people (dnt remember who :( though ) are in a mission to wipe out sum of the bad people on the earth...

So we really make a fundu plan...

Guess wot ... we take the help of a scorpio...

Let me picture it out in a better way...
It looked quiet healthy ( I mean the scorpio) unlike me and my other friend though very small in size( regular size)
Was brown in colour and looked beautiful...

We generally hide it in sum book or sum other stuff and giv it to the person concerned... and rest as they say 'they are part of history '

We are quiet succesful in our mission as no one is able to catch us...

I dnt remember exactly but sumthing made me try this out on my friend....
I kept it in a book and when he picks up the book he is bitten by the deadly scorpio and its venom was more than sufficient to take his life....

Dis made me really go mad ... and I realised my mistake ... but it was all late ...
I am asked to play cricket match wid my team mate ( hey these guys follow me evrywher into my bedroom also I mean in my sleep also) but I am totally depressed... Neway I play ...

Dat brings the end of the dream atleast to the point I remember...

Neway I am sorry for hurting u my friend even in my dream...

R u still wondering who the ill-omened , poor chap was

He was no one else but 'Brokenshard' aka 'Sunny' aka Late Sunny Saxena (in my dream atleast...)

But the story does not end there ...
I dnt remember exactly whether dis was the continuation of the same dream or I saw it after waking up from the first phase only to be depressed...

But here it goes... (2nd phase of the great dream)
I was so mad at my action dat I took the scorpio and let it bite my fingers... to make me realise whether I cud hav saved him... But after the venom rushes my body I try to pull the venom out of body by my mouth but thanks to the deadly venom I am unsuccessful...

Poor chaps
Thanks it was a dream...

Scorpio and its venom cool ( or deadly)...

It was Mr Sarat once now its Mr Sunny hmmm... interesting

Some crap

Its been a while dat I have written sumthing...
I was busy for sumtime... and then didnt know wot to write...

Its not as if I didn't wnt to write... I just cudnt decide...

Neway thought of writing abt self ... the way I make and decide on friends....

I am an introvert kinda guy...
I am not usually a gud starter... I can't go and talk to ne stranger on the street although I guess many of u can ...
Though I dont mind talking to neone on ne topic on the earth... Its not a problem for me to put forward my opinion... whether the reciever end is a good acceptor or a bad one... But I take care I am not talking abt the offshoring issue wid sumone selling vegetable...

But one thing is sure I cannot force myself to neone...
If there is sumone I like and want to be friend wid bcus I found him\her gud enough I might take the first step ( but this also rarely ) but not the next unless and until I am pretty sure dat the other person concerned wants me to be in his life...

Its his\her personal life I can't force myself into it... Many a times I have got sum bitter scolding from my friends for not taking the next step...
But I am still not comfortable in taking the next step...

Before going furthur I wud like to judge whether I hav ne importance in his\her life... I hav tested sum of my friends in dat aspect, although they don't hav the faintest of idea abt dat...

Had they failed in dat test I wudnt hav got closer to them... I wud hav rather gone away from them....
I am an egotist kinda guy... If I dnt feel a sense of importance at a place I wnt be there....

I cant stand at a place where sum1 is constantly ignoring me...

I dnt carry my ego wid me when I am wid the best of my friends... There are very few people on the earth before whom I can bow my head... And I will love to do it for my friends...

As I have said my friends are my weekness... But if they are the one who try to shy away from me then I wnt force my self onto them ... I cant force... rather I will stay away and be punished by not being wid them...

Neway all senti stuffs... I am recently getting very senti about many a things and feeling very lonely for the same...

Neway dnt take dis article as if I am pinpointing sumone and saying it...

Its just dat I wanted to write sumthing and came up wid this crap...

Hey all tc