Life - Moments

Life is nothing but moments

Moments measured by days ... by hours ...by minutes ... even by seconds

One needs to live the moments and he/she lives the life. Don't doubt it, don't question it, don't discuss its lifeline. When you have it, just see its beauty, feel it, live it or else when it says the good bye it will drown you in a shadow of silence and all you have to blame is no one but you

Live life by moments

Am not dead

Yes, I am not dead...
Just been busy... Squeezed and strangled was I...
Here I am back and this time will post regularly untill I am lost again :D

Am at Bhubaneswar...

Day 1 ...
Woke up late at 8.00... Thanks to the chat with my Mom till 3.30 in the morning....

• Spent a good part of the day at XIMB campus...
  Life at XIMB that I got to know... is all about project, project, project and presentation and how can I forget this.... Girls sleeping in boys hostel ;) ...
• Of to a place called Tanduri delights ( these guys make some good Biriyani , but the place can be made cleaner)
• The same old Kinetic, scooty and the same ride... The same old days...
  

Even the rain failed to keep our spirits down... Though we got a bit wet... but who cares as long as you are enjoying....

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Day 2...

• a hour at my friends college who was desperate to meet his love and I was made the scape goat but before he could make me bore, but I managed to pull him out he he ...

• Then of to a book store, and just realised Bhubaneswar is not an IT city but still managed to buy my book - "Professional AJAX" ( this gonna rule internet or atleast define how internet programming be done in the near future)
  
  
• And then coffee at Barista, but despite having the best coffee at Barista realized CCD rocks...
  
  
• Got wet again, and this time I was scared about catching fever and spoiling my leave but ...

Tommorrow gonna be all rest (I guess ) on my bed with my books and all myself...
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Confused

Don't know what I am doing here.... Just could not sleep...
Got a big headache and landed up here... Still dnt know what I sud be writing...

Feel like banging my head against something until it starts bleeding and hope in the process I loose all my memory... No .. No... Not my memories... They are too precious for me... I am going to live all my life with my memories only. How can I loose them?

Ohhh! I am confused Fuckingly confused!
Why the fuck? ... I have never been this way...

Working on weekends :(

Its Sunday and I should not be at office, but I have been here for both the days and have been working hardIts been a great day for me today. For the first time ever I felt very happy at my job. Punched the air and wanted to celebrate.

Felt bad that couldnot celebrate with no one around... Nothing new I am used to it... Just some momentary pleasure but never comes in a complete package...
But I am not complaining as long as my purse is spared... ;)

Ha ha ha ...

And before the acids start eating up my belly I need to take some food.. Its been a long day and did not get the time to feed myself...

A year on job (Year of Moments)

Its been 1 year (well… almost only 2 days to go) on the job.

I remember how excited and nervous I was when I landed in Bangalore for my joining…

And looking back all I can say is professionally its been satisfying… But yes I am still waiting for some bigger challenges… Challenges that gives me an opportunity to prove my character… But 1 year is too short a period to ask for everything…

The last year I would say has been year of many moments…

• Yes, I have changed as my friends say, but I hope it's for the better… Proceedings in last year have made me change… Was never a confused guy… Never overestimated myself neither underestimated. I always knew where I belong to… But last year most of the time went on talking to self, understanding me better but never getting a answer… And sometimes I failed to get the questions correct even… What's the question?
  
  
• Many misunderstandings … Many… I tried clearing many… But I know there are still many… And that too with my closest of friends and the ppl whom I respect very much and who matter to me… Please guys talk to me and scold me, rip off my ass, prove me wrong, I will love that rather than being misunderstood…
  
  
• Unable to meet friends as frequently as I use to when in college… Once in a month is wot is possible and things worsening with days… Even a call to friends is some kind of a treat… I hate this part of my life… Sometimes I feel like throwing away my phone… But still waiting for it to buzz…
  
  
• But still its my heart that I listen to… I still do things which I believe are right… Friends hmmm… Are my life… I cannot loose a single for some or the other reason… I still have the same principles which I dnt compromise…

Best Moments

Many starting from my salary and buying gifts in my first salary… treating friends with my hard earned money… Moments … And many moments….

This year led me through various stages which I can never forget never… There are so personal and so important to me…

Worst Moment

Last year I have cried many a times, simply because at times I felt as if I am running short of people to talk to… People blaming me… People thinking me to be a sick friend… Simply I hate people misunderstanding me…

And if one single moment that I wish would never have happened is my College Convocation… This one day made me feel week, incapacitated and wanting… and will always be there in my memory…

But at the end of all I have learnt a lot… A lot … I know now how to handle myself and having been doing successfully for the last 20 days and will keep on doing that…

So a memorable year with memories both bad and good but nothing to forget… and a lot to carry forward next year…

Happy B'Day Dumbo

Happy B'Day my friend...
Wish you all the best in all that you do in your life...

I know you will always put your right foot at the right time at the right place...
As you move ahead success will be always there to welcome you...
Your smile is your identity and wish they are always there with you all time ...
People will notice you because they just cannot afford to ignore you...
I have known you for the last 18 months and known you more than I have known anyone...
You have known me and understood me, and you have been my reason for smile, my reason for joys...
I take this opportunity to thank you for whatever you have been to me...
I will always be there for you and I know you will also be there...
At last you are my sweet dumbo...




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Today you grew older by another year..
More such Days will follow...
And I won't be there in all...
You will grow to be more popular, smarter, richer...
As you hair turns grey and more grey

More people will join you in your journey...
Some better than me...
Some more important than me...
Time will take its due toll and we may not be very much in touch...
Things will change...

But I will still remember you and I know u will...
The day I take my last breath you may not be my side...
I will be sorrounded by many people
But you may not be one of them...
I will still remember you for all that you have been to me...

All I ask for is when I take my last breath, you close your eyes and say these words
"Will miss you Idiot"

Many Many Happy returns for the day...

Convocation

Officially supposed to be the last day at college....
And never had thought life will show me its bitter face there...

I would say it was all fucking day... And since this day wnt come back again, it will be imprinted in my memory for the rest of my life... A day for which I had planned so many things...

Attending the Convo all alone... Not a single photo taken with friends...
Not a single friend coming to say "Hi"...
The fundamentals of my whole life has been shaken...
I thought there are very few who understand me but alas... And my friends are some of them...

But Life shows its bloddy fucking face when u dnt want it the most...

I am damn confused about some aspect of my life... Just dnt know where the fuck I stand...

And this time I dnt wanna shout fuck fuck fuck... It wnt help...
Ohhh... Why the hell....

p.s Wrote it at evening

p.s Some Addition
Life has still got some beauty thanks to the friend ( Cheers to you )...
Will miss u a lot...

Fuck it

Want to stand on my terrace and yell "FUCK" "FUCK" and "FUCK"..................

p.s. No pun intended

World Is Flat

No... No this article has nothing to do with the Thomas Friedman's book...

Its just one of those boring thoughts that creeped into my tiny brain...
And here it goes...

The world is indeed flat...
We start our journey crawling and then learn to walk...
Hardly we have seen the real world we start running not knowing where are we headed for (genious they who know it)...
Tired we slow down, but keep moving as if this is the only job in hand...
At the end there comes a time when we can't stop even if we want to and want to badly... All we see before us is nothing but darkness and the infinity... And we keep on moving till we are part of the infinity...

Am I wrong...

Had the world not been flat, there would always have been an option to start all over again... But no there is no option ... We aren't given any... We even dnt have an option to go back a step.... to correct something... to improve something... to start all over again...

We move on and on on a flat table to reach the other end and fall into the infinity...

Long Break

Its been a long time I have posted anything. My office browser has some problem I guess.
Am able to open all the sites but unable to check the blogs properly... :(
But now since I have done some changes in the blog settings will be able to atleast post some blogs if not comment.

So hopefully will blog more frequently now.

Had a lot of stuffs to write but forgot he he...

Mission Accomplished

It was a second try and worth it… I did it…
Yes it was a great feeling when I had done it…It was satisfaction to the fullest…Almost tired but the result was worth it…After all it was one hr of hard work ... that too after returning from office…and believe me I didn’t mess the room either…

I am talking about my skills in the kitchen…
Yes I know u all will be surprised but I tried it…
Thought of trying my hands on the stove and some stuff which I rarely get to see in their raw form…
Neway according to the plan I prepared rice, dal and alubhurta….

I reached home and after switching on the TV was in the kitchen …
Cleaned all the utensils required for my exercise tonight… And to my amazement before nething wud have discouraged me I had switched on the stove with the dal in the cooker…
For the first time probably I counted the number of cooker whistles to perfection ( Dnt remember how many times I have received scolding from Mummy forgetting to count )… But here I was bang on target… 3 whistles… Dat was the signal… the yellow pulses are cooked…

There I was and regarding the rice I remember the whistle count … It was five…
So the trick is remembering ur count and also have faith on urself while deciding the quantity of items to be cooked… But sometimes it mite fail… C it failed for dal but worked for rice… I mean the quantity… Atleast we didn’t run short…

So had my dinner …stomach full and satisfied… And yes there was nothing to complain about… But the catch is… There was no one to complain also…My room mate who shared the dinner is always nice to me… He has this illusion that I am a nice ass not to be messed up with…

So back from the battle room I was there on my bed all tired and exhausted… But the sleep was worth it… Mission accomplished...

p.s I didn’t burn nething or cut ne of my finger and wot more … The kitchen looked the same as it had been before I was out on my mission … I mean a mess… But what the hell... Boys room are neway always a mess else y they are called so…

The best time to do it

"Opinions Vary

JUST do it, is the message in a commercial which plugs the virtue of instant gratification. However, opinions still vary on which is the best time to do it. Some say late nights are ideal. Others swear there’s nothing like that early morning feeling. Then, there are those who regularly do it before dinner. And some always have the time and the inclination. A TV news-channel interviewed three Indians who did it at different times of the night and day. Each person’s biological clock differs and this obviously explains why the ideal time varies from late nights or early mornings to post-tea and before dinner. A bit of yoga could boost performance levels and help achieve greater satisfaction. Some do it loudly and noisily so that everyone knows what’s happening. Others do it so quietly that even those in the immediate vicinity are not aware of what’s going on.

Some need absolute privacy while doing it and are so temperamental that even the creaking of a chair in the next room can affect the mood. Others get into the mood only when there is a bit of background noise, and a snatch of music or even a cricket commentary can spur them on. Maybe they have been brought up on Bollywood movies where the director makes a song and dance of everything even when nothing happens, a la the teenaged student Bobby in the movie after the same name who went around singing Hum tum ek kamre mein bandh ho/Aur chhabi kho jaaye! while closing all the doors and windows of the room in the cottage. Whereas, the Chhupa Rustams do it on the table without letting the world know what’s happening. In India, even those who haven’t been doing it for quite some time are now into overdrive as if they have no other choice. With India’s school-board exams round the corner, lakhs and lakhs of students throughout the country have no other go but just study! "

-Courtsey ET

Did someone say Double meaning talk... ;)

If you can run, why to walk…

Surprised…
I participated in a Marathon (5 km Marathon)… Before u all open ur mouth and start laughing and predict whether I was able to complete the marathon or not…
Here it is

I completed the full 5 km(screaming)… Yes I completed the marathon…

But wtf if I didn’t manage to win a position…

Many had doubted whether I was eligible to participate in the event at the first place…
So it’s a big big slap on their face who underestimated me … Now the poor fellows must be crying why did they wake up the sleeping giant… People had gone to the extent that they enquired whether any ambulance facility was available or not… Dats not all… I was humiliated to the extent that when I called up after the event they enquired if I was calling them from a hospital… and ppl even enquired whether I was the beneficiary of the charity or the other way round… Gimme a break…

Ok on serious note…

Dis was the first ever marathon I had participated… It was an initiative from my company… part of the CSR program, where we had to get ourselves register for Rs. 50. The same amount was contributed from the company. The amount collected was to be sent to a NGO-“Parikrama”. But this was not my reason for participating in the event… My main reason had been to do sumthing I’d never done and to get rid of all the mundane stuffs of write… Moreover I was pumped up by the enthu shown by my TL and PM… This reason was enough to inspre me to wake up early(6.00) and brush my teeth early in the morning and go for it…

So I did that and also didn’t miss my project party (discotheque party) in the evening…
Hold on I even washed my clothes dat day… Now dis is wot is called strength folks…

So wot do u all say…

So dis is for all of u … I am not as weak as u all assume me to be... :) :) :)

Finally

212 days in Bangalore and still counting...

Its more than 200 days for me in Bangalore…
July 3rd was the first day in Banglore …
A cool 212 days…
There are few things which have changed and some which not…

The things which have not changed for me

1. I still brush late
2. Given a chance I still bath late.
3. Food still not a priority for me.
4. My bed is a dog’s paradise. It’s still messy… and I always forget to fold my blanket in the morning.
5. Sachin is still my favaourites.
6. Friends are still my weakness.
7. I am still very passionate about all the things that I do.
8. I am still uncomfortable talking to girls (they are the one forward their hands for handshake rather than me).
9. I still do things which I feel are correct and don’t care about any damn thing on earth.
10. I can still talk long over phone.
11.I still have got my brain under my ribs.
12. I still love coding.
13. And I still follow my own rules.
14. I still don’t make any plans but am part of it (I mean no excuses here )

Am not planning to change any of the above things though (except the last point)…


Things that have changed for me

1. I am in Karnataka’s capital and not in Orissa’s capital
2. I am not in college
3. I have lost some weight. See, I had some weight to be lost.
4. I earn my money
5. I wash my clothes.
6.I talk less at my work place.
7. I am getting a bit bored
8. No fav. Actress in my list now, sadly

8 is a big number I guess. So I am improving...

Reason

This was one of those days when I was alone. Was scared to get lost in the crowd. Was scared to be alone... I sat alone and this is wot I came out with...

Reason

A reason to smile
A reason to cry
A reason to live
A reason to move on

Thats all I ask for...

You are a reason

A reason that made me cry
A reason that made me smile
A reason that kept me breathing
A reason that was enough to keep me moving

You turned away
You never looked back
You never called me
You never smiled back

I have been waiting all these days
Peeping out all day
Waiting for the elusive call
Waiting for the smile

I still move and keep peeping into your door when I am around
Just waiting for you
Just waiting for a look
Just waiting for my reason

Disappointed, I move on
As tardily as it can get
As senseless as it can get
As rudderless as it can get

No I didnt cry Cause you are not there to wipe it out
No I am not running away without telling you
No I am not dying cause you are not by my side
No I am not doing anything without you


Am lonely
Am dejected
Am scared
Am waiting


Hope
You will come back to pull my leg
You will come back to giggle at me
You will come back to defeat me in the countless silly arguments we have
You will come back to justify my reason

I want
I want your legpulling
I want your smile
I want to be defeated by you
I want to be jackassed by you

Just give back my reason
A reason is all that I want
A reason is all I need
A reason is all that is sufficient

Hey friend!!!
Hey dear friend!!!
Hey friend where are you
I have been waiting for you
Give me back the energy that I have lost
Give me back the smile that is gone


Give me back the reason of my life...


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Mobile Lost

Missing

NOKIA 1100

Colour Black

Purchase Year is 2004

Unique Mark : Was quiet dirty and the number 3 was not quiet visible...

Message Box quiet filled...

Yes I lost my mobile... And Yes I am desparate...
I lost it sumwhere on my way to home from my friends place ...
I guess I am solely to be blamed for dat... I was quiet absent minded on my journey due to sum incident... or else the mobile wud have been in my hand ... keeping me busy playing the "snake"

Yes I am quiet desparate... It was nothing less than my girlfriend... rather I treated it nothing less than I wud hav treated my girlfriend... My friend had always made fun of me the way I was always glued to my mobile... (but not now)

All of my friends know I hav never been a materialistic kinda guy... But dis mobile was the first thing that I was so attached to...

It had memories attached to it...

• Those long hours of chat ( the longest being 270 mins(approx) now dnt gasp, it was followed by a gud number of 100 mins )
• Those fights over the phone...
• Those missed calls
• Those message marathon
• And most importantly those message archieve I had maintained which I used to go thru when I wanted to talk to sum1 but cudnt call

I will miss u "My mobile"... I miss u like nething... I hav cried for u.... I hav cried for u like a child cries for his mother... I hav always loved u...

Anyone who havs it now please take gud care of it...

If u all think me as insane and laughing at me, then I cant help it... dats ur jurisdiction...

But I and few of my close friend know wot it meant to me...

A Retrospect...

Today I sit welcoming a new year and bidding bye to the older one… When I sit down and look in retrospective all I can say is “ Will always miss u… :-( ”
In brief the last year had been a year I will be always nostalgic abt…

All that I can succinct is here

The year started with sum addition to my friend list… A couple of them made it to the elitest… I will mainly dedicate the last year to them…

After we gave our last semester, it was the turn of lotsa parties and get-togethers ( 1 of them led to a bitter spat with my dear friend … how can I forget dat… dat will be always there in my memory for time immortal… remember )

Then it was the bitter time for separation, saying bye had been one of the toughest thing to say for me, and last year I had to say in more than one occasion… People will always say dat, “ dnt worry we will meet for sure, sumwhere in the near future” but believe me those words never consoled me… Yes I cried a lot fearing whether I will be able to meet my frnds or not… ( I can go on writin, but better stop here)

Then the big day arrived for me to step into the corporate world… After much deliberation, I decided to join Accenture and not Wipro, and looking from the point where I stand now I made the right decision… Neway on career front everything has been gud till now… ( if u consider stability as a gud factor)… Ya I m more or less satisfied … but wud like to move to the next level very sooner…

I also started livin on my own in one of dream city called Bangalore ( a paradise for ne SW proffessional), dat means I hav to wash my own clothes now ( ya I do it evry weekend and this thing wont change in the near future also :( )

Many a thing to write, many a emotion to share, but time and space dnt allow me to do the same… At the end a song which was forwarded to me which is so true…

2005 was when.........
when we wrote our last B.E. paper.........
when we passed out of college....
when we made new amazing friends.....
when some of us moved to a new city.....
when some of us celebrated our 22nd birthdays.....
when we waved good bye to our buddies leaving to the
states for higher studies...
when some of us fell in love........
when some of us got married......
when some of us fell out of love
when some of us got hurt
2005 when
when we would have made mistakes
when we made life descisions.......
when these decisions turned out to be a tragedy
when some of us felt lonely ....
when some of us made an amazing friends in a new city
when some of us would have learnt to be stronger.....
when some of us would have realised that everything
happens for a reason.....
when some of us let out our anger.....
when some of us never opened up to our friends about how
we felt....
when some of us felt so glad and happy to be the way they are.....
when we go out everyday and meet up with our friends...
when we had serious talks with our dad about our future.....
when we missed each other when we were at hometown………..
when we missed our mom here …..
when we cried for each other …….
When we celebrated our first Christmas with our friends ….
When we were jobless all the time in office ……..
When we walked around the streets late in the night ……
When we put budget for the next month (but strictly not following it)
When we attended those late night calls (only incoming calls)
Last year has taken us through all our ups and downs
we faced in our life...
2006.......one more year .....a year to....
To find our life partner (might be)
to smile........
to let people know how much u care...
to learn from our mistakes.......
to cry when we are feeling down.....
to follow our dreams.......
to fight against everything for our dreams to come true.....
to be more confident.........
to be more strong at heart and mind.....
to enrich our knowledge.........
to make others happy....
Lets take each day as it comes........
Forget about the downs we came across in the past year........
And remember every lesson we learnt through them........
Lets Enjoy Life to The Fullest............
Lets Be thankful for every day.....
All The Very Best For The Year to Come.....
WE guys are goin to definitly Rock this year........


"Words cannot capture everything that memories can capture…."

Miss u 2005 Welcome 2006

p.s I also started writing blogs....