Confused

Don't know what I am doing here.... Just could not sleep...
Got a big headache and landed up here... Still dnt know what I sud be writing...

Feel like banging my head against something until it starts bleeding and hope in the process I loose all my memory... No .. No... Not my memories... They are too precious for me... I am going to live all my life with my memories only. How can I loose them?

Ohhh! I am confused Fuckingly confused!
Why the fuck? ... I have never been this way...

Working on weekends :(

Its Sunday and I should not be at office, but I have been here for both the days and have been working hardIts been a great day for me today. For the first time ever I felt very happy at my job. Punched the air and wanted to celebrate.

Felt bad that couldnot celebrate with no one around... Nothing new I am used to it... Just some momentary pleasure but never comes in a complete package...
But I am not complaining as long as my purse is spared... ;)

Ha ha ha ...

And before the acids start eating up my belly I need to take some food.. Its been a long day and did not get the time to feed myself...

A year on job (Year of Moments)

Its been 1 year (well… almost only 2 days to go) on the job.

I remember how excited and nervous I was when I landed in Bangalore for my joining…

And looking back all I can say is professionally its been satisfying… But yes I am still waiting for some bigger challenges… Challenges that gives me an opportunity to prove my character… But 1 year is too short a period to ask for everything…

The last year I would say has been year of many moments…

• Yes, I have changed as my friends say, but I hope it's for the better… Proceedings in last year have made me change… Was never a confused guy… Never overestimated myself neither underestimated. I always knew where I belong to… But last year most of the time went on talking to self, understanding me better but never getting a answer… And sometimes I failed to get the questions correct even… What's the question?
  
  
• Many misunderstandings … Many… I tried clearing many… But I know there are still many… And that too with my closest of friends and the ppl whom I respect very much and who matter to me… Please guys talk to me and scold me, rip off my ass, prove me wrong, I will love that rather than being misunderstood…
  
  
• Unable to meet friends as frequently as I use to when in college… Once in a month is wot is possible and things worsening with days… Even a call to friends is some kind of a treat… I hate this part of my life… Sometimes I feel like throwing away my phone… But still waiting for it to buzz…
  
  
• But still its my heart that I listen to… I still do things which I believe are right… Friends hmmm… Are my life… I cannot loose a single for some or the other reason… I still have the same principles which I dnt compromise…

Best Moments

Many starting from my salary and buying gifts in my first salary… treating friends with my hard earned money… Moments … And many moments….

This year led me through various stages which I can never forget never… There are so personal and so important to me…

Worst Moment

Last year I have cried many a times, simply because at times I felt as if I am running short of people to talk to… People blaming me… People thinking me to be a sick friend… Simply I hate people misunderstanding me…

And if one single moment that I wish would never have happened is my College Convocation… This one day made me feel week, incapacitated and wanting… and will always be there in my memory…

But at the end of all I have learnt a lot… A lot … I know now how to handle myself and having been doing successfully for the last 20 days and will keep on doing that…

So a memorable year with memories both bad and good but nothing to forget… and a lot to carry forward next year…