Dance Bradford – Day 1

This is the one thing I so much like about UK-The emphasis given to cultural activities… And yesterday and today they have this festival called – DANCE BRADFORD. Have been there yesterday for couple of hours.. it was a good dance performance by a Russian Group called TOP9. It was amazing…

I could not record the good part of the show as I ran out battery (you can curse me for this). I will post some snaps that I took their… Will attend the show again today and may be will post something better…

 

 

There was no place to sit, I mean they did not have any chairs, its not as if the crowd was huge… I had to stand there for 2 hrs but it was worth it… I could not record the good part of the dance as I mentioned I ran out of battery… The worst part was standing among the drunkards… Less crowd I believe was because it was a Friday night where people would have gone to bars, clubs and been banging each other… Was saddened actually by the turn up… I had expected a bigger crowd…

Reminds of the days when we use to have those “Melody” in our colony… ya there was this band called Habib Melody from Cuttack…. It generally use to start at 9  or 10 in the night in a huge playground in the middle of our colony and use to run for 3 hrs (if I remember correctly)… people would start pouring in right from the evening to book a sit for them and their family… I would be one of those who will always arrive late… just to check out the beautiful girl, there always use to be a beautiful girl in these group – young, sexy, beautiful, good voice and it was fun for us… there would be other senior singers in the band singing those Rafi’s songs and I use to wonder what these guys are doing here… if they can sing so good, whey are they not in movies… not found my answer yet, not as if I am still searching for the answer… but yes there use to be that beautiful girl… Life is great… Would like to attend one of those again…

p.s one thing I use to hate about these Melody  is the audience… they use to be very cold… despite some good performances and even repeated pleading by the host, they would never clap… wtf I use to think…come on that does not cost you money….
p.p.s where is that girl now ??? (wondering)

The changing financial world…

Ohh what a week it was for the financial world.

• Fannie and Freddie bail out by the US Treasury
• Lehman Brother bankruptcy (ya the chapter 11 thing)
• Merill being taken over by BofA
• HBOS being taken over by Lloyds TSB.
• AIG being given $85bn loan in exchange of 79.9% stake
• Short selling being banned in major stock exhcanges (seems to be more of a political move)

So where are we heading from here. People already have started losing jobs. The day Lehman Bros UK office went into administration 4500 people were asked to stop work. HBOS and Merill deals will obviously trigger few thousands more. We just have two investment banks left in US – Goldman Sachs and Morgan Stanley. Some people say we are back to the  Soviet era where govt controlled business – AIG is such a case. All we can think about is negative here. In India the second tremors will be felt at B-School Placements (the stock market being the first). But I would see this as a good sign. This kind of events happen once in a century (Mr Alan Greenspan’s view). The poison in the system is being pulled out and rightfully so. Many saw this as coming the day the Credit Crunch started hitting on us. But these people underestimated  that and were rather arrogant in what they were doing.

I see the golden line in this hour or dark clouds – new business models being formed, innovations happening in the capital market, new young players standing up with their ideas and selling it aggressively, just give them some time. Financial Capitals of the world will have new addresses now. Just imagine what are these bright minds going to do after they have lost job – There are 20 rounds of interviews to land an entry level job in Goldman and many people there will loose job. They are they brightest minds of the financial world .Do you think they are going to stop working – no you are wrong. They will rewrite this script and in a much better way. There are many B-Schools students who will not be sucked up in this poison and be made part of it. They will redesign the scripts. I think we have come a full circle now and a new path has to be charted for the good of all.

A new financial order is in the making… This is just the time when the mess is being cleaned, we need a break and tomorrow it will be a new dawn, a fresh new dawn bringing with it a new energy.

Till then bear the pain….

a phone call :-)

tried calling her… I mean I called her… took me almost 2 hrs or should I say even more to decide whether to call or not and its so fucking irritating… it took me another hour to figure out what to talk about… hmmm and I did figure out… nothing… then why on earth was I trying to call her… well just to hear her voice may be… ya… guess that was it… was thinking abt her the whole day… well I know I do that every day… there was nothing new abt it so why did I want to call… Can’t I say just like that… think her voice makes me feel a lot better… I am chatting wid her now… so better publish this now… mor later…

bye for now…

I just want to see you…

I just want to see you
When you're all alone
I just want to catch you if I can
I just want to be there
When the morning light explodes
On your face it radiates
I can't escape
I love you till the end
I just want to tell you nothing
You don't want to hear
All I want is for you to say
Why don't you just take me
Where I've never been before
I know you want to hear me
Catch my breath
I love you till the end
I just want to be there
When we're caught in the rain
I just want to see you laugh not cry
I just want to feel you
When the night puts on its cloak
I'm lost for words don't tell me
All I can say
I love you till the end

P.S. I love you

wot a race!!!

I say that all the time but the formula 1 circuit is getting better and better… kudos to the kid - Sebastian Vettel from Toro Rosso… the youngest GP winner in the history of Formula 1.

Felt bad for Lewis but the McLaren seems to be doing more and more mistakes in the past few races… they need to put their thinking cap on and give a better performance at S’pore with just 2 weeks to go… wot a race dat is going to be – first race under lights and with 60% probability of rain that is going to be one hell of a race…

But today’s race belonged to Sebastian Vettel – perfect pit stops, perfect race and the guy just kept cool… the McLaren were left clueless… Boy he has a long way to go…

Lazy weekend

1st a movie marathon …

• The Butterfly Effect
• Vanilla Sky
• Mumbai Meri Jaan

and its not over yet … watching ps I love you… good movie but always felt the book was a lot better… will finish it today…

Italian GP to catch now and with Lewis in 15th place at the start  the race gonna be interesting…

and spoke to her yesterday… I mean had a chat with her yesterday… felt very good. :-)

ps I love you…

Bad time

Okkk now isn’t it frustrating… You want to stand by your loved and dear ones during their difficult time and you are simply not invited… I am in middle of something similar now... I cannot afford to be angry as well cause I do not know the real reason for the treatment given out to me… There is something in me which says there is no malaise intended… It has happened in the past… I know it...But I had called her many times, SMSed her but of no help… I have stayed online almost 24 hrs a day for the last 3 days just to see her online and discuss it with her… But again of no help… I have been thinking about her 24 hrs a day… checked my mobile and rechecked and rechecked for a missed call or sms… she had promised to call me… she had promised there is nothing bad… But I know she is lying…Believe me it is frustrating and sometimes makes me feel angry and let down… But I have faith in her and I know she knows what she is doing... She will not do anything to hurt me… The trust is there, always been there… But then if you are not with your dear ones when they need some one then it makes u feel horrible...
But it sometimes scares the shit out of me...There are very few things which she won't discuss with me... is this one of them... oh no... it does scare me...
May be time will tell… may be I need to wait longer…
To her… Love you and do take care and I know you can…

Wot a race!!!

Wot a race… Just managed to see the last 12 laps… but wot an extra ordinary lap – lap no 2… the overtaking by Hamilton – a show of grit, determination and patience… this man has got the skill and some ice cubes between his ears… Kimi the unlcky fellow… rain playing the havoc…

But cheers Lewis…

p.s. fuck he is fined 25 secs… dats serious fucking…

Back in UK

Back in UK… Same hotel… and as luck wud have it I even got the same room – Room No 226… Some initial confusions like – my type of booking – whether with breakfast or is it only room.. its all sorted… had some heating problem in my room but that also got sorted out…

its freaking cold here and its been raining since the day I arrived here… have to get used to it… work is not much of pressure now… at work it is more of adapting to the office politics more than displaying your talent at the things that you are supposed to done
:-(… but guess that is all workplace is all about… need to learn the trick of the game but till now have not been doing it that well…

p.s. had to write more on my India trip… blame it on my laziness….

Back to UK

Back to UK... At Heathrow now... Will blog in detail about my stay in India.

Lost in thought (II)

I sit tight on the bed staring blankly at the street from my window... I am suddenly gripped by some kind of fear, an apprehension... an apprehension of not being with someone today... a fear of not having her again... a fear of not seeing her again... drops of tears roll into my eyes. I stare at my mobile to send a text but then I sit back and decide against it... Why to pass on my sorrows to her  when she is already into so many things... I respect her the way she leads her life, she handles her life... Learning at each stage from her... I am not calling her now though I know she is the best person on earth for this. cause something in me says not to...

Lost in thought

Reached Bangalore yesterday... Been a good vacation at home (Bhubaneswar). Nice weather, nice time spent with family and friends... Will be flying back to UK on 3rd September...

Do not know why but there is something which is stopping me to go there. Something inside me is screaming out loud that there is something more important to be done here. An unfinished job... It makes me cringe...It tells me that you have this one last opportunity... You have it or you lose it... Do not know what to do now...

Had come to India in one mission... following a dream... an inspiration and the thought that - 'you have just one lifetime... if you want something in your life give it all and do not repent later that you did not give your best' . I have given my best but something still tells me that it was not the best... For a moment I had my dream come true but within few minutes a bloddy SMS ruined it all. I know it all sounds so cryptic... But there are people out there for whom it makes all sense...

A message for her - I love you and will always. Your smile is all that matters to me and will do whatever possible to keep that going... Its a promise... I have nothing to offer you but all my love... Love you...

Wish you read this...