ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!!

Saw the news on 26th which was initially reported as a gang war and by the time I get back to my hotel it had blown up into a full fledged war on my motherland… I have been on TV and on web (when I was in my office)… Getting angry as each moment pass… Its fucking war on my homeland… I feel so hopeless and that’s what makes me so angry… I just want to go and kick those mo^%£$ f$%*&! on their face and hurt them where it hurts the most… (I am so sorry to use these words but I am very very angry)… Its enough… Now I request the media and our politicians not to talk about Mumbai’s spirit…. Its bull shit… I demand all the people to be angry… and show their anger on the leadership of the country or rather the lack of it… I am ready to do whatever I can do, how insignificant it may be… I want to do something… The feeling that I am not able to do anything pisses me off more… I do not expect anything from the politics… Already cheap drama has been started by various NETAS… I feel so let down by these people… I want to do something about it, to channel my anger in a correct way… We need a revolution, we need people marching and making a statement… I ask all my fellow country men to organize a big big revolution, I will be a part of it… Let us all just converge at Mumbai… show our anger… Enough is Enough…  Its my fellowmen who are hurt and who have been killed…

I thank the brave Mumbai police force, the NSG commandos, the MARCOS, the army, navy and the brave firemen…

Job well done…

How do I say it… I am so so happy… I am so proud of her now… She has gone ahead and achieved something which she has been dreaming for the last 7 years… This is where she wanted to be and she is there now… How do I congrats her… Anything I say will be small for the occasion. Its her day tonight and she has done in style.. For me the best part is she wanted to do something in her life and she has achieved it. How many people do that in their life? Not many… I am ot surprised… I never doubted her for a second… I knew it was always coming… And it is my turn to be happy now…

All I have to say is – “I am very very happy for you today as always. I am so proud of you. I just wish I was there beside you today to see your smiling face. Congrats sweetheart.” I just cannot stop smiling.I wanted to celebrate today so went out with my colleague and sponsored a good dinner on her behalf. I am so happy.

Moreover she is coming to Bangy now and that is :-) :-) :-)… Did I not tell earlier she is just fabulous…

Buddha mil gaya

One of my all time fav song… Have loved it since I was a kid (my Mom says it)

wot do you do when you miss someone a lot?

well I was having a chat with her yesterday and this question came up…

well wot do I do when I miss someone a lot…

I breathe…:-D means I miss her every second, every milli second, every moment..

But when I am alone, I think about her, remember the moments that we spend together, bask in its glow and smile… there is nothing more sweet in this world than her smiling face or her face for that matter, the way she talks, everything… the way she makes fun of me also makes me smile, there are many times I would act like a stupid (or moron as she would put it) to make her happy and so that she can tease me. That makes her happy and me too… These are the moments that flash through my eyes when I am all alone and think about her…

I sometime pick up the phone and try to call her but more often than not, do not… reasons – I would have called her few days back or I would presume she would be busy or I would not have a good excuse (though she would insist I do not need an excuse to call her, but you know you still need one) or sometimes there is this feeling that if I call her too much she might get bored and she might think that I am calling her more often or I would be emotionally high and do not want to call her and end up saying something which I do not want to… sometimes it is more weird – I would have a conversation with her in my mind presuming what she will answer and then how I will follow it up and sometimes this lasts so long that it would be too late to call her(I said this one is weird)

sometimes I will try to write a blog but more often than not I will delete it…

sometimes I will just sleep wishing I would dream about her…

sometimes I would think we are together (seriously) and try to visualize how we are leaving happily ever after :-)

sometime I would get scared that we might not be together in future and I would try to imagine what I would be doing… one thing for sure I would not go to her marriage or if I go she her in private and then run home, definitely not with the groom, I would definitely go to some unknown place without informing anybody and without carrying my mobile, be lost for few days and then comeback… this is what I think when I am really in a very depressed mood… but this is not very often… somewhere in my heart I have this feeling I can make it…

sometimes I just go out and walk all alone… hmmm that reminds me of a nice song…

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It was another lazy weekend… Saw few movies – Courage under fire and Grease. Both were good. Courage under fire was just fabulous…

Have to wake up early for the match :-)

A wish…

One simple wish I want to make today…

that, when I take my last breath, I want to be beside her, holding her hand and smiling with a thought that I have done all that was possible to keep her happy, always well…. ya always…

that her tears fall on my hands and wet my skin, but I give that smile which says – don’t worry love, we will be together soon…

that I can feel her breath, hear the beats in her heart which faints as I imagine myself to be standing in the midst of the beautiful nature and live a lifetime while I take my last breath…

Well this is one simple wish and am hoping for the day when it would come true…

My lazy weekends…

A Wednesday, Sleepless in Seattle, Casablanca, Road to Perdition, You’ve got mail, Welcome to Sajjanpur and Couplings and a lot more… dats wot I have been watching for the last few weekends… And yes F1 – the Brazilian Grandprix, the India – Aus cricket match… Have been going through this Potato Couch phase and believe me I am not complaining :-)… there is gym to compensate for all these lazy ass activities...

p.s. there is this The White Tiger also which I have started reading lately…

Am back again

Was sick… But with 6 tablets of calpol I am back to normal again… :-)
But had dry cough for few days… but its all ok now…

Have been suffering from BIDS for the last few days (blogging idea deficiency syndrome)… And laziness… well dats always there but this time around it was at its pick… Have been going to gym again and its been a bit tiring but I am afraid it does not seem to have any impact on my tummy… I have to work hard and make myself look perfect (fit is a better word) before I am in India… There is a reason I am cancelling my onsite and going back to India so cannot let anything come by way… :-D

Had a bad dream… a horrible dream today which woke me up early… Its so bad that I cannot even write it here… It scared me to hell…

p.s. I have been watching two interesting sitcoms recently… one is Coupling (British version of FRIENDS, but FRIENDS rulz). This one is a more sexed up version of FRIENDS so that is d only plus point but when it comes to humour, FRIENDS beats Coupling up and down…
Another one is – Paul Merton in India… this is not just another documentary on India… this documentary shows a completely different view of India which even many Indians won’t be aware of…

Have to see all the episodes before I can post anything interesting…

Got to go office now, its late… and  I hate morning con calls… :-(

Still bad…

The fever’s not gone yet… Woke up in the morning with a heavy head…Somehow dragged myself out of the bed and rushed to office… Had to miss the morning conf. call… And if that  was not enough could not take lunch thanks to a P1 call which came our way… But some managed to leave office around 5… Had a good sleep… but had to go to restaurant for my dinner in the cold… was scared I may get worse but somehow had to go as cannot afford to sleep empty stomach… taken Calpol so guess should be OK tomorrow… its already late and for some reason I am not getting sleep… but will try… tomorrow is a long day…